I WISH I NEVER MET FERDINARD

 Hellooooo ,how is your day going ? Am sure you’ve been delightfully great ,I really hope you are  having a jolly good time with cherished minds….Now its story time. It’s a story about a young promising child Jillian ….don't forget to drop your comment on Jillian's narration.....love you guys....................................




........................................I met ferdinard on the 14th of February 2014 at toyin birthday party ,ferdy as I fondly called him,a young handsome guy of about 20 years old ,he was just two years older than me,,,after the party ferdinard exchanged contacts with me,he promised to give me a call,mehn I was feeling so fly,you really need to see my ferdy,he's a tall dark skinned guy,he's glow is muuuuuah,he has an open teeth,he's cheeks like that of freshed puffpuff,my love for his dimple,…OMG..i said in my thought he's from a wealthy family cox looking at his wares alone tells it all,m so lucky…
Ferdinard gave me a call the next day as he promised,we spent a huge amount of time talking on voice call,we talked about hobbies and favourite places,he asked for my house address and I was so happy because my parents travelled and I was left alone in the house waiting for my post utme results,ferdy told me he would come the next day,I was just so happy,I couldn’t wait for the next day to come and yeah the next day came,.
It was a beautiful morning , I woke up to do some house chores , prepare breakfast for myself,take my bath and do the neccessry,after all work was done, I took my android phone,came up online to see if ferdy was online and luckily for  me,he was online, I purposely send a forwarded messae to him just for him to notice that I was online and he replied with hello beautifull,hope your day is going smooth,am on my way to your house and I responded with alright expecting you.Some  minutes passed by,was just anxious to hear the ring bell, piiiiiiiipiiiipiiii my phone ranged I picked the call and it was ferdinard telling me he was at the gate,I hurriedly went to meet him, ferdinard dressed decently to my place,I asked him what he cared for and he said nothing, I insisted and he finally said water so i gave him water, he asked me how I was faring and the recent update about my utme exams,then we diverted into politics, am actually a die hard fan of politics though, after much conversation on politics ,ferdinard said there was something he has been wanting to tell me ever since the day he saw me at toyin party and I was like am all ears, he told me that I was beautiful,my eyes are fanciful,he loved me at first sight ,I was his one and only love and I got the best make over for my face.. I blushed after hearing what he said,,,I was already attracted to ferdinard.
Barely two weeks in our relationships, I and ferdinard started going on dates ,shopping sprees and parties,people took  notice of us,not to long we were nick named romeo and Juliet.our relationship was getting more intereting and exciting ,little did I know that the worst was yet to come.
one fateful day , as usual ferdinard came to my house,but this time with a sad look,I asked him what the matter was ,he told me I was the matter , I felt so bad,how can I ever hurt the love of my life, I said to him"ferdinard what have I done to you to hurt you this way,tell me please I promise  not to do it again"then he told me that I don’t love him, "that’s not true i  interrupted" ,he said if I loved him why haven’t I proved my love to him, in what way I asked, ferdinard answers through me off balance, I kept mute for some seconds.. what, did I just hear you say sex , for goodness sake ferdy am a virgin,I cant do this now, then he said we should quit the relationships if I cant have sex with him, how could be this, I said , he left the house without saying a word……..........few days later a friend of mine came to visit  me, her name is mya, mya used to be my very closed  friends before she gained admission into the university,so she just came for holidays , we gisted and I told her about my relationship with ferdinard and the recent turn up,mya said I was wrong for not having sex with ferdinard,that since I love him there is no crime in having sex with him,she gave me a million reasons why I need to hold him tight emphazing on the fact that guys are scarce and we need to give them what they want in other no to lose them,after all that was said she left , I bidded her goodbye …
 The next day came I called ferdinard , I thought he wouldnt pick the call because he earlier stated that we should call it quit if I wasn’t ready to give him sex , fortunately for me, he picked the call , we had a little talk, I gave him my consent and that I was ready to have sex with him, and we started all over again, not to long my pot of honey was broken, I finally lost my virginity to ferdinard ,sex became like food for ferdinard ,we did it almost everyday, sooner than I expected , ferdy attitude towards me chane, he started complaining  over every little thing I  do, it was so weird,he reduced his attention for me,he was now always verty busy….. I was feeling so bittered about his recent behavior,.I got a call from my parents , they told me they were coming home, I wasn’t happy with  the notice,my parents were supposed to spend 3 months before coming home  but they said they missed me so badly,,,oooops I forgot to tell you ,hmm well am actually the only child of my parents ,,,yeah the only one…. I wasn’t really comfortable with my parents coming back home now, it was so soon to me, anyways its okay since I can always fix a date outside home with ferdinard…
Days passed by, and I got a call from ferdinard , I was so happy thinking ,at first I thought he wanted to apologise for his recent behavior, but unfortunately he sternly told me he was not  longer interested  in me, he said, he never really loved me that he just wanted to use me. I cried and cried till there were no tears to bring out, There was nothing I could do.
The next day came, mum and dad were back, they bought a lot of things for me, I pretended to be happy knowing fully well that I wasn’t happy. After some days I decided to cheer myself up. Afterall  it was only my virginity I lost to him, little did I know that I was pregnant.
 Weeks passed after weeks, I fell ill, mum asked me what the matter was, I told her it could be malarial but I actually  missed my period,not quite long, I started noticing some changes in my body, my nipples where  darker, my breast becoming fuller, I started acting clumsy and I was always sleeping. I knew I was pregnant so I decided to meet a gynecologist to abort the baby, he said I could not abort the baby that if I try to do any of such I may lose my life.
 Sadly enough, mum and dad got to know about it, how could I possibly hide the pregnancy,it's definitely gonna show, I explained all that happened from the very beginning to them. Mum and dad asked me for ferdinard address, how foolish of me that I never asked ferdinard for his home address, I only had his number. Mum felt like killing me but what was the need, the deed has been done. My parents tried ferdinard number all to no avail,it wasn’t reacheable,we couldn’t get him for weeks,no traces,my parents went to toyins place to ask her about ferdinard,she said she knows nothing about him.
 My post utme result was out, I was offered admission to study medicine at UNIBEN, I was not happy about the news because I had to give birth to my child and nurture the baby before thinking about school again.
 However, everyone in our neighbour hood got to know that I was pregnant. i who used to be pride of my parents was now the opposite. I was now a disgrace to myself and my family. I had to accept it.
 Months rolled by, my delivery was near,At last it came, during labour, I suffered a lot, it was not easy for my baby to come out because my pelvis was not wide enough, the baby couldn’t come out so the caesarian operation was carried out on me,it was a successful operation, I had a male child,the baby was the exact copy of ferdinard, I hated the baby with everything in me,. A week later, I was discharged from the hospital. At my teenage age, I was already a mother.uhhhhhhhhm
Had I know, I should have rejected ferdinard, A month after my birth, my father died,I felt my whole world was coming to an end, I could not accept the death of my father. I got loosed of my senses went to the kitchen and brought a knife. I stabbed my son,looking at him reminds me of ferdinard, after killing my son that I bore with pains, my senses came back “GOOD GRAVE” I shouted what have I done, in my own hands,the blood of my son looking at me,I screamed ,my mum  came in, she saw me with the knife and her lifeless grandson,she instantly got insane, my neighbors got me arrested, I was charged for murder.
…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….Am just here sitted down,with my heads bowed down,my freedom has been taken away from memi haven't seen the outside world for some time now, been praying for death to come take me but it seems death has gone far from me, with tears rolling down my cheeks, all I have ever dreamed of is gone,(deep sigh)my mum died while receiving treatment at the psychiatric centre,..may my parents forgive me for everything,I sincerely wish I could turn back the hands of time……………but I cant ...... I still don’t know what the future holds tho....I just wish I HAD NEVER MET THE MAN FERDINARD.......ooooh the warder is here,it's seems like someone wants to see me....who could that be??







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